Goddamn it, I can not understand any of this whatsoever.
It would help if I understood ANYTHING about chemistry, even just memorizing that periodic element table would help a whole lot in this case.
I'm sure if I attempt anything vaguely clever, I'll blow my face of or something, but I like the look of me in cool goggles bending over some beaker with smoke rising up in my face. ^^ Kind of... Mystical.
Man, this shit makes me feel entirely stupid.
Besides all that, I don't even know where the fuck to find any rye.
Mescaline is so much easier. >.<
But I don't want cactus spikes everywhere, had quite enough of that at Charles Street!
Grrr. I just wish I could figure out how to do ONE thing in my pathetic little life. Would make me feel so clever and proud.
I have an entire week to go without my beloved girlfriend. I want to do something useful with this time of missing her... Learn some epic life skill, make some cash, so when she gets back I can take her to a fancy restaraunt, like she deserves.
I am so hopeless.
Krys, I love you a whole lot and I miss you already. Take care. I will try not to fail, and do something totally epic for you when you return.