Tuesday, January 20, 2009


It happened.
Only problem is, I'm not sure what.
But there is no way of putting it other than a complete 'snap' in that imaginary thing we all pretend exists, the mind.
Maybe it has something to do with the acid. But God help me, I can't get enough! Being scrambled to the extent in which you can not deny it, constant, churning loops of nonsense whirring past your eyes. Even if I lose my mind before I'm twenty, what a better way to do it!

I always have so much in my mind. Currently, I'm wondering why I other thinking, but I can not stop. I can not stop tuning in and dropping out. It hurts, it confuses, what is the sense in this madness?

I'm becoming more and more what I should be. Not what I want to be, what I really am, or what I need to be, but honestly, what I should be.

But, I don't know what that is...
But this changing... I feel so disconnected.

It's unnatural, it hurts me.
But I know I must do it.

Wish me luck.

1 comment:

  1. Hi me,
    Of, uh, what, 6-7 years ago?
    I do wish you luck. I hope you come out the other side of this better than I did.
    Just remember - you CAN stop. Anytime you want.