Only problem is, I'm not sure what.
But there is no way of putting it other than a complete 'snap' in that imaginary thing we all pretend exists, the mind.
Maybe it has something to do with the acid. But God help me, I can't get enough! Being scrambled to the extent in which you can not deny it, constant, churning loops of nonsense whirring past your eyes. Even if I lose my mind before I'm twenty, what a better way to do it!
I always have so much in my mind. Currently, I'm wondering why I other thinking, but I can not stop. I can not stop tuning in and dropping out. It hurts, it confuses, what is the sense in this madness?
I'm becoming more and more what I should be. Not what I want to be, what I really am, or what I need to be, but honestly, what I should be.
But, I don't know what that is...
But this changing... I feel so disconnected.
It's unnatural, it hurts me.
But I know I must do it.
Wish me luck.