I feel like after the amount of time I spent away from here, I owe myself. But it's not like that, not now.
The demon... I kind of wish it were real, but I've figured all it is is something to keep me sane. If I blame all my theories, premonitions and absurd knowledge on somebody else, I'm just as normal as everyone else. But I guess all it took was a little bit of something horrible to realize that, hey, get the fuck over it. I'm not going to fit in, so why keep trying? It's frustrating. It's painful. It makes me angry, makes me wish I could open up my fucking mouth and tell them how idiotic the things they're saying are! I wish I had the strength to be myself, to not just sit and watch the world go by and open my mouth only to say those silly little cliche things that clarify me to be completely ordinary. Face it, no matter what the hell they tell you, you're not fine, you're not going to be fine, things aren't going to work out and you are completely alone in your thinking.
Nobody else has any relations to the things you thing, you fucking idiot. You're insane, you're insane, you're insane. Does that help? No, it doesn't, because you're not insane, are you?
Liberate. Pure... Clean... Free.
Stop being what you want to be! Stop pretending you know more than everyone else, because you're a motherfucking idiot. You know nothing, you're not special, you're not different in any other way except that you have this horrible little way of looking down on everybody else and picking them apart as if they don't even exist.
But hey, don't think that makes you any better, it just means you think you are,
Do you even remember what you were talking about!?
Are you talking to yourself, or someone else?
I don't really know, and cbf caring.
Well, I'll tell you what, honey. You just spoke to yourself then, right? And you're doing it now, right?
Yeah, but that's different.
... And that, my dear, is the end of that. Insane, sane, idiotic, brilliant. cbf caring.
It's too much fucking effort.
Like a good little stoner.
FUCK THAT POT SHIT.